Psalms 51:1-2 : Why Feel Guilt?

At first glance the meaning of this verse is simple enough, but it ministered to me in an unexpected way before I wrote this post. I previously wrote about the benefits of meditating on the word, and I encourage all believers to do so. It will make the word come alive.

This verse takes me back before my journey began, when in my ignorance of the faith, I saw Christians as judgemental, always looking to elevate themselves for their "righteousness" and look down upon me with condemnation for my "sin". 

I saw God as unjust. I would say things like "Why would I want to serve a God that is always reminding me of my sin?", "I mean these are his rules anyway, what kind of God makes a human who can sin, then demands that they don't? Isn't that just setting me up for failure?". In short I didn't see my sin as some "great transgression" that I should seek compassion and forgiveness for. I was generally a good human being, I didn't commit any crimes, was generally nice to people. I thought I was doing just fine by myself.

Therefore, I was incapable of feeling any guilt for my sin, I just didn't see an issue.

I wonder how many of you are in this place right now reading this? Having seen this verse you are still on that place of your journey asking these type of questions?

To those people I would like to confess something. As I write this now, this to me, is one of the most powerful verses that can minister to my everyday life.

When you decide to make Jesus Christ the Lord of your life, and take that initial step of faith, you will have to give up on some things. Faith in Lord Jesus, that He is the son of God, that the trinity is real, that the Father is the God of all creation, is the beginning of your journey. From there comes the next part which is relationship. God always knew you, but you have only just come to know Him, and you will have to get to know God.

As your relationship with God grows, you'l become aware of all the things He has done, not just in the Bible, for you. 
Personally. 
You will come to know how good He is, how for everything that He has done, does and will do for you; He requires very little in return:

Deuteronomy 10:12 New King James Version (NKJV)

12 “And now, Israel, what does the Lord your God require of you, but to fear the Lord your God, to walk in all His ways and to love Him, to serve the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul,

Knowing He will work all things for Your good because you love Him (Romans 8:28). There are so many verses about how good God is when we obey that I couldn't list them all here, but God is faithful, and He wants to bless us. 

Understand I am saying all of this and I've only really been born again 3/4 months! When you realise how good God is for us, working all things for our good, blessing us, being patient and so much more; you will feel a tremendous amount of guilt when you let Him down. 

You will learn about that character of God, I am still learning believe me, but what I can tell you is that He is forgiving, compassionate, patient, gracious, merciful and so much more! Yes we will let God down but He gives us hope, that as long as our heart is for Him and we have faith, He gives us grace.

God does not want you to feel condemned. I realised that on my journey, those were flawed human beings that made me feel that way and not representative of God. 

God wants you to seek Him. 

God doesn't want you to sin, for your own good.

So seek God with all your heart, stay in faith and be encouraged knowing that God sees that your trying and His mercy endures forever! (Psalms 136).